I wish I loved God as much as I love Spotify.

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It’s the craziest thing..

I’ll be casually talking to someone about how I use Spotify on my phone in place of an iPod, and when they ask me “what’s Spotify?”, I get strangly enthusiastic and eager to tell them about it.

Oh, you’ve never heard of Spotify before? Well, excuse me while I blow your mind with the awesomeness that is Spotify… 

It’s like I go from normal person to the ultimate sales person in 2.5 seconds!

Seriously, Spotify needs to pay me for the amount of new customers I bring them.

For those of you that don’t know, Spotify is like Pandora on steroids. You have unlimited access to nearly all the songs in the world for free. Any artist, any album, any time. Of course, the free version has annoying advertisements every other song, but if you have premium (as I do) then you don’t have to deal with all that. And you can create playlists to download and listen to your music offline on your phone, computer, tablet, anywhere.  I use it in my car during long road trips, while running on a treadmill, and while getting ready in the morning. I’ve once DJ’d an entire college fundraising event using Spotify. Honestly, it’s the best $10 bucks a month I could ever spend. It’s simply brilliant.

Do you see what I mean? I’m obsessed with Spotify! I could go on and on about it.

Now, I’m about to pull a Jesus Juke on you..

Isn’t kind of weird that I could go on and on about this simple program; I could confidently name off all it’s features and express with great enthusiasm how amazing it is, and yet I can barely utter words when someone asks me why I love Jesus?

Ouch! What a Jesus Juke, right? (seriously, ya’ll need to read what a Jesus Juke is because what I’m doing right now is a prime example).

But honestly, I wish I loved God as much as I loved Spotify!

Maybe “love” isn’t the right term.  I love Spotify like I love FRIENDS (and most people know how deep my love is for that show). It’s brilliant, it makes me happy, and it’s on every day.

But I love God. Like, immensely. So much so that words don’t even describe it. Sometimes I can’t even express to God how much I truly love Him and all I can do is sit there and cry out of adoration of his mercy and greatness.

I know without a doubt that my love for God is greater than my love for Spotify.

So why do I get nervous to mention how great God is to my non-believing friends?

Why does my mind suddenly go blank when I have an opportunity to share the gospel message with someone?

It’s almost comical to me. I have literally talked to a coworker for 30 minutes about how freaking amazing Spotify was and basically changed his life by introducing him to this program. And all he said to me was “Oh, you’re an Air1 listener, too? So am I!” Yup, didn’t even need to be on the subject of Spotify and yet I converted him. I’m just that good.

How cool would it be though if I was that confident when telling people about Jesus?

Oh, you’ve never heard of Jesus? Well, excuse me while I BLOW YOUR MIND with the freaking amazing awesomeness that is Jesus Christ!

That would literally be so cool. And it’d be way more convincing than the way I do it right now. I get so nervous at the thought of “sharing my faith” that I give people “bible school answers” instead of how I really feel about God. My nervousness gets in the way of my passion.

I think I over-think it way too much. I worry about being offensive, or getting the facts wrong, or seeming too pushy of my religion.

But why?! If my faith really is my identity and source of hope, then shouldn’t I be eager to talk about it with other people, Christian or non-Christian? I mean, honestly, this is one product that offers a lifetime guarantee. You’d think that I would want to share it with everyone.

I wonder what these “God conversations” would look like if I was confident. I wonder what people would think of God if they saw my enthusiastic passion instead of my hesitant fear. If they could see how I really felt about Him; If they could truly feel what I feel when I talk about him. I wonder what they would think then.

Because God isn’t someone I should be embarrassed or ashamed of. He’s not a religion that “fits my needs” and “makes me feel good”. He’s not a Sunday thing. And He’s not just a part of my life. He is my life. And I think it’s time I start acting like it.

Wow.. Spotify, Jesus Jukes, Friends, AND a convicting statement, all in one post?! Not bad for a Monday.

Love you all,

Lottie

The Best Thing That I’ve Found

During my early years of college, I used to have this vivid, reoccurring dream that would only come to me after a night of heavy, ridiculous drinking.

In this dream, I would be so. unbelievably. thirsty. Like I just trudged through a dry sandy desert for forty days with no water. My mouth was cotton-y and I craved the satisfaction of smooth, clear water on my throat. I would drink water, but nothing would happen. I was still just as thirsty as I was before. It would drive me nuts! I would guzzle water like it was nobody’s business. Gallons and gallons of it. Yet I would still be extremely thirsty! It was like I could never be satisfied by any amount of water, no matter how hard I tried.

In the last seconds of the dream, right before I woke up, I would always hear the same voice. And here’s what the voice would say:

You can drink from the world all you want but only I can satisfy you. 

It took me a while to piece two and two together, but when I did, the realization of what was happening finally dawned on me.

That dream wasn’t a coincidence and that voice wasn’t just in my head.

I had to learn that the world literally could not offer me anything that would be more substantial than what God could offer me.

You see, there’s not a drink in the world that can cure you. There’s not a pill strong enough to numb your pain. There’s no relationship perfect enough to fill the void in your heart. No activity, organization, or hobby can keep you busy enough to distract you from your problems. No amount popularity can keep you from feeling lonely. There’s not enough clothing stores in the world to make you feel good about yourself. And no amount of success can give your life meaning.

You might think there is, but there’s not. I guarantee you all these things the world offers you will leave you empty, dissatisfied, and discontent.

I’ve been obsessed with this song “Best Thing That I’ve Found” by Saigon. If you want to listen to it, look at my right sidebar for the official music video link.

In the chorus, it says “Another face in the crowd, fall from from grace, I’m coming down. You’re the best thing that I’ve found. You lost your way, I lost my crown. I’m still here, feet on the ground. You’re the best thing that I found”. I cannot stop listening to this song. For some reason, this truth is ringing in my heart today.

Jesus is the best thing that I’ve found. Hands down.

I could drink from the world all I want, but only God can truly satisfy my soul. I don’t even like to think what my life would be like without Him. There is not a single thing the world has to offer that I want more than Him. I’d rather drink the cup of water God offers me than the gallons of water the world tries to offer.

“Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” – John 4: 13

If this is you right now, I dare you to stop chasing the world and run non-stop in the opposite direction. God will be there waiting for you, holding a cup of water that will truly satisfy.

Love,
Lottie